8:09 a.m.: Was feeling overwhelmed and Anxious that evening with all the extreme changes happening in my life at once. I received a message from my friends saying to come out and join them for drinks! They were leaving the country.
I thought about not going out. I even cuddled up on the couch in attempt to soothe my woes. But isolating myself disconnecting, Especially from ones I share a deep connection with, is not something I desire and unhealthy. TRUE from time to time, especially when I feel unbalanced, I need time to recoop, to realign my mind, body and spirt; Usually accomplished in a solitary enviroment. BUT
That night I wasnt going to let anxiety get the best of me and it didn't. I was able to harness my inner strength and recognize that these obstacles will still be there in the morning, worrying about solutions, or weighing myself down with burden or guilt wasn't going to help. To enjoy a few moment without worries, with folks I care about, was going to help. My soul, my mind, my heart. Emercing myself I'm the now. #win
SO here I am Ejoying Tea, at the Local watering hole, #richardsgoat with my lovelies. Had to opt out of a cocktail, I was feeling so sensitive on a chemical level, legit #anxiety, that alcohol would have not been wise. #drinktea #listentoyourbody **For those of you who don't know I have been suffering from anxiety for about 1 year now. Severely for about 6 months, attacks that would last 3-4 hours and leave me feeling hopeless. Lifeless. Overall I'm a very positive and silly person. Always making the best things, seeing the silver linings, and generally hopeful. Having something like anxiety, come out of no where, makes you feel crazy. And fearful. THAT IS NEW. These past few months have been very difficult for me. Trying to retaining my independence. An identity. An ego.As a strong person.Someone who can and will handle it. A leader. But we all have limit. I suppose mine was reached and now a shift in the balance of things. And it's been #painful #beautiful #insightful and a #learningprocess. Always Learning. Till the day we die. LIFE NEVER Ceases to #surprise .. one day, I'm #hopefull to be #anxietyfree and if not, that's okay too.#real
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